To live the day by night....

Each morning I wake to nearly the same situation in the same place with the same expectations. Nothing has changed, and at least for some time it will not. Yet there I am stunned, shocked, confused and overwhelmed by each repetition. I go through the day angry and frustrated, rarely enjoying moments I will never get a second chance at. I make excuses for it, There's always an explanation or at least someone else to blame. But lets face it...I make my own world go round. I look in the mirror with disgust, not only for what I see on the outside but for what that vessel holds inside. Almost as if it isn't me, I judge that girl and think how I could live her life so much better....so much easier. Sadly the same conclusion is always waiting for me. She is me, I am her and we cant seem to do any better for us. The same day with a different number on the calender drags into evening and my view begins to swirl. Things that made my blood boil are now simply warming my heart. I can smile again. I can see it all for what it is and appreciate it. I say my sorry's and finish the day out the way I should have started it. Calm quiet reflection falls over the house as everyone sleeps. I go to the same mirror with the same face and without surprise I see the same girl but now I see what everyone else claims to see. I notice her beauty, however flawed it may or may not be. I feel her pain and accept it. I want to tell her that tomorrow is going to be a new day, that she has another chance to be everything she sometimes knows she is....but I know she'll never hear me.